Hi Mike, so glad to see you back and writing on here again. Sorry for the delay in posting, I was away for the weekend and was shattered last night so didn't have the energy to read posts properly.
I hope you can get something for the pain and that you heal quickly.
I too can understand you feeling lonely and Lizzie brought a tear to my eye too, like Fishy I couldn't imagine life without my husband. We have been together almost 24 years, since we were 17 and he was my first true love, even being away from him one night on Saturday I felt lonely and I was with all my friends, a life without him would be unbearable Anyway, enough of that before I cry (again!). Also, as Fishy said, you have a reason to be here for your family and friends, both 'real' and 'virtual' so please stay strong.
Huge hugs and keep well on that road to recovery x
PS A person's religion makes no difference to me either, inside we are all human whatever colour, faith, sexual orientation etc you are. I must apologise though because I think a few weeks ago I may have made reference to people knocking on my door (which I don't like).....oops, sorry