Posted: 29/03/2016 at 14:13
I thought that way before they told me to retire or be dead in a year. So we bought a house with a large piece of land intending to open a nursery. Believe me the stress levels went through the roof, trying to get it started.
If you are the sort of conscientious type of person (and you sound to be) any job where you need to reach your own set standard is going to be stressful and gardening for other s is no different.
Don't know what to suggest though, except hope that you find some relief from the anxiety. I did, I gave up doing anything, but that is not an option for most people.