Posted: 28/11/2014 at 06:47
Mike, I think you've revealed the problem - there's an unwritten rule of the web - alcohol and the internet don't mix.
We know you're sad and lonely - many on here are - and some on here have far worse troubles than sadness and loneliness to keep them awake at night, believe me
When you were ill and frightened we offered you friendly support, which you accepted. Now you are well for which we are thankful. Gardeners look forward to the future, the snowdrops and the catkins that signal spring's coming yet again. Gardeners don't wallow in the Slough of Despond or in the mud. We know that to do that causes problems for the future.
You have an interest in continuing academic study - have you considered joining the University of the 3rd Age (U3A) http://www.u3a.org.uk/ - an opportunity for retired people to share their knowledge and experience with those who have an interest in learning in small local groups and over the internet? I'm sure you could contribute a lot. Check it out