Posted: 05/05/2015 at 14:01
Bless you - try not to get anxious about things. It sounds to me as if your new neighbours are trying to be helpful to someone new in the area.
As you say they probably know that you have a difficulty and they want to help. I'm sure they don't expect you to wave a magic wand and create a wonderful garden overnight - if they like gardening they know how much hard work it takes - also, as you'll learn on here, most gardeners like to share.
Don't worry about having a disability and being young - most people with any amount of intelligence know that disability is no respecter of age and things can strike at any time. A very dear member of my ex in-law family started having strokes in her late 20s - she had a tough time to start with, but then she moved to somewhere where the neighbours were kind and helpful and she got to know them.
They knew that she wanted to be as independent as possible, but all gardeners lend and borrow tools and give cuttings and seeds, and soon she had a lovely garden she and her children could play in, and as her health took a turn for the worse the garden became a sanctuary for her, and her neighbours always knew where to find her, resting in her little garden.
Don't put too much pressure on yourself - talk to your neighbours when you feel up to it - explain that you're shy (or something like that) so they know to give you a bit of space, then you'll feel in control of things. A smile can work wonders even if you're not up to talking that day.
And one day you'll be the person offering to help your neighbours or give them a cutting or seedling or two - how lovely will that be?!
So no, you're not paranoid and silly - just a little shy and anxious, and gardening is a great way to get some confidence and make some friends - just take little steps - you don't have to do everything at once