Posted: 01/03/2013 at 16:48
I had to have quite a few emergency operations 3 years ago which resulted in me then having panic attacks and phobias. I couldn't go to work or leave the house for fear of having a panic attack. I gave medication a try as I was at my wits end but they made me feel worse and I was then referred to have Cognitive Behaviour Therapy which was fantastic. The panic attacks started to ruin my life, I couldn't work, go out or perform on the stage which was another hobby of mine. The one thing that kept me going was gardening. We had an allotment so I would spend alot of time there in the peace and quiet with the birds. I now live in France with my partner and best friends running a self-catering, camping and B & B business in which there is a huge garden and vegetable plot. Since moving I have only had a few panic attacks and spend pretty much all of my time outdoors enjoying rural life. Sowing seeds, digging and nurturing what you have sown gives me so much pleasure. I have bird feeders all over the garden and even hanging from the hanging tiles outside the window!! I can't tell you how much better I feel being able to enjoy nature. I still have blips but not as bad. It's good to know that I am not alone and it's great to be able to share experiences. 
Keep gardening!!
