Posted: 24/04/2014 at 01:06
To be honest. I have lost the plot. Last Saturday. I attende theQE at Woolwich for a CT Scan. Fully expecting to have to drink some concoction containing iodine. No. Goining into the inner sanctum. I had to lie flat. Most painful. Mike has kypho scholiosis of the spine. To lie on my back, I can't breath, and teh pain to the diaphrame is terrible. So the iodine wa sto be injected. Mike is not all that good with needles, however I manage. Left arm..no go. Right arm...no go. Right hand. Mr Allen, your veins are so deep. Cobblers thinks I. At times I amuse myself by, pressing downon a vein in my hand, slowly passing a finger along it. It goes flat,the releasing the presure, it all comes back. Eventually a needle is inserted. Is that hurting Mr A. Yes says I. Then sorry, I can't continue.. I can't print my silent sayings. No No that's alright. For gods sake get on withit I want to go home. I came away looking lie a an ad for Dr Whites. Ladies will know what I mean. I had all these tiny filter tips suck all over me. The back of my right hand was black. Amanda, me and a Microbiologist are disgusted that, I have been subjected to all this invasion of body and soul. OK the urologist ,after the cystoscope. Poking a fibreoptic camera up ones spout.. OK he says. Yes you kave bladder cancer. I'l book you in for surgery. Don't worry. No cuts etc. This type of cancer is not a killer. As I say. we are most annoyed that up until now, nowone has sat down and talked this over. Hey medics. I am alive. I feel pain. Yes I am afraid. Hey guys. I am not some rubber dummy that you can stick pins into. To be honest. I have an assessment appointment in a weeks time, followed by a meet with my GP, regarding blood tests. Sory. It seems that the left hand doesn't know what the right hand is doing. OK, Mike might be losing it now. One minute, I learn that blader cancer isn't a killer. It, along with prostate cancer, is slow growing. I am 75 come December. Yes I love life etc, but I am so lonely without my mate. I have known many who have suffered cancer, gone through agonising treatment and the passed away after perhaps a couple of years. Despite medical advancements etc. All this additional pain and sufferring for just a year or two. This thought that bladder cancer is not a killer. Folks pleas. Can you in some way or other enter my thoughts etc. ruly friends. I value your thoughts. I have studied in parts, homeopathy. It real does work for me. Honestly. Mike really is at a cross roads. HELP!.